Tuesday, July 04, 2006

blehh.

feeling the heat. i dunno la. they say my av proposal not comprehensive enough. but wad to add? i mean like wad can u put in an AV proposal. most of the stuff is hands on anyway?

dunno. just have this feeling of insecurity. its like everytime i look at what others are doing. i just always seem to ask myself. how do measure up to them, how do i measure up to myself. its like i looked at the other co heads. shawn doing an excellent job so far, wei ming taking charge of invest, den yi han really speaking out on what should be done. somehow i just really feel so incompetent. its like i have so many things to do. and especially in my co but i cant seem to help cus i dunno the ropes, i need to get all my co members to do most of the work. den thinking of ideas, seem so dry and lack of creativity. even some small simple thing like planning next years valentines day compared to teachers day and stuff. i dunno wad to do. sighh.

its like when i decided i wanted to do this. i wanted to do it for God. but now i seem to be nowhere, afraid of how much time its gonna take away from me too. afraid that i ll fail. afraid i ll get mocked.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! stressed. i m not as free as i look to be k..

|cowpoo| 9:03 PM|

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